Attending Fanime, anyone?
Are any of you attending Fanime this weekend in San Jose? Let me know! :D We should jazz hop the karaoke stage together. I tried to do that last year a bit, too. Yay, Fanime! :P
I don’t want to live just for the weekends. I want to live everyday. Even when I work, I want to feel alive. I want to say “please” and “thank you” with the most sincere smile on my face. I want to be human in an environment around other humans… but why is it that sometimes, it feels like I am punished for being a human that does not do things perfectly? I want...
I recently realized that the songs I write are things someone else told me and things I wish to believe in whole heartedly. I want to believe that I am strong and have overcome so much but all I can do is pretend I have… Though I’m actually not sure of myself…
I am so sensitive and vulnerable to the things that people think or say about me. I am ashamed to admit how I let people’s thoughts of me ruin my day. I cannot control what you think of me. No matter what my action, there will be more than a thousand interpretations. Perhaps what brings me peace is that I know what is in my heart. No malice. But what if those who are selfish don’t know...
I decided to have a diet coke this Friday evening to stay up late because I rarely ever do so. And for the first time in a long time I spent some time with myself listening to music and crafting stuff. I have a folder full of unfinished lyrics and drafts of some vocals I recorded. And I just reflect and laugh at myself because I realize how much I’ve changed in just one year… changed...
Started jogging but I keep getting headaches the morning after. I also feel like throwing up. I don’t run THAT hard. Sheesh. I have no other outlet, so sorry tumblr, I am posting something kind of pointless. lol
Why do we always feel so incomplete? Like something is missing? Always feeling inadequate… lacking to the department of some idea we’ve made up in our heads, the idea sewn together with threads of both the outside world, our experiences, and our own thoughts? We’re never enough for something. And we’re always striving after something beyond reach even with it is within...
A 7-Step Path to Enjoying Work | Becoming... →
becomingminimalist: Enjoying work has less to do with your actual job and more to do with your attitude towards it. This is intriguing. Definitely keeping this in mind in life.
I had a stressful evening. In regards to my personal situation, I hope what went down helps me move a huge step closer to closing an unnecessary elongated chapter I’ve been living out. On to the new chapter, please.
Sometimes I wish I could go a day without wondering why life the way it is (and the fact of death) and overanalyzing everything as if it were some puzzle to be solved. Sometimes I think, though, that this is why art exists… because we are motivated by wonders outside what is in front of us, outside the fabricated world that is molded by others for us, because we want to see if...
Working on lyrics.
And I have this terrible habit of starting a song and never finishing it… Like 10-15 songs… (explains why my “final” drafts are sooo short) Dooodeee… >_< Le sigh. I’ll get some done somehow! >_<
Minimalist family enjoying life. →
“Nine months ago, we sold our house and almost everything in it to buy a boat and travel with our family of four. Our goal was to simplify, live closer to nature, and spend time with our children while they are still young and want to be around us. We felt that if we didn’t make a change, we would continue to spend our foreseeable future in a daily grind of work, school, homework, and...
Life just seems kind of silly. The media and society tell us that we should be living a certain way and convince us into thinking that it’s the “right” way. Okay, so now I have a house, a car, and a job - but what for? This life is nearly so empty. I am at work and preparing for work more than I have time to myself. Fortunately my work day has gone from 8 to 7.5 but even so,...
You have enemies? Good. That means you’ve stood up for something, sometime...– Winston Churchill.
Friends. Of convenience/Of Passion.
For the longest time, most of whom I have considered my friends were people who were convenient by way of geographical proximity or having gone to school with them. But in truth, we hold barely anything in common except for the fact that perhaps a few years ago back in grade school we had a class together and/or we know the same people (also from the same school) some way or another. And while...
INTERNET FINALLY! Finally did my final move of my stuff and finally got internet. I have so much to do, but I do have plans to write up some new songs. Upon recovering from sickness and allergies, I have time to settle down and write some new material. It’s definitely been a while! I feel so MIA these days with the internet. I’m exhausted… Still can’t relax. It’s...
I wonder if killing yourself is the only thing you can control in your entire...– Pete Wentz (via fashionfever)
Thoughts of a young adult.
One of my strange “hobbies” is analyzing and organizing. I like analyzing my expenses and organizing them to make them efficient. I like to do away with things I don’t need and focus on key items that will prove effective. Being an adult is pretty difficult. I miss being a kid (don’t we all?). As great as it is to live on my own upon college and afterwards, you have to be...
Moving back to my hometown Oakland! :D
Pretty excited! Getting a bigger place for less than the price of my current apartment close to the BART station and good food. I’m pretty JUICED. Bwahhahaha.
Oh, San Francisco.
I always thought that my life would be better if I lived and worked in Japan. I wanted something different. I wanted a drastic change in pace. I wanted to do something I felt was monumental, at least in my own life. Unfortunately, the opportunity did not come my way despite my efforts. At that point, I had to improvise. I now work in San Francisco. While I am from the Bay Area, I never worked...
It’s nice to know I am moving on from some things in my life from back then that were holding me down. It’s nice to realize that I can continue on that track and continuing to not just minimize things from the past, but also from the present, so I can be stronger moving forward. Gotta find new friends to intellectually connect with. Talk about philosophy, religion, music, and such. I...
Been busy with work!
So it’s been about a week and a half at my new job in the heart of San Francisco! Cool thing is that I work just down the street from my boyfriend. We’re both in beautiful high rise buildings with gorgeous views of the bay. I work right next to Chinatown also, so I get access to good, affordable Chinese food. There are also good vegetarian selections available. I’m pretty happy....
Yesterday was day one of the new job. BART parking is a beeyotch where I live so even though I start work at 9:15am, I left my apartment at 6:30am to grab a spot, catch my SF train, ride for about 40 minutes, and waited around for nearly two hours until work. I need to move back to Oakland asap to be closer to BART and SF. I can’t be dealing with this loss of sleep time. XD
I got the job!
Yay! Now I work in the heart of San Francisco!!! :D I guess working in a big popular city is something you gotta check off your bucket list so yay - little me in the big city. Woot woot!!! :D
Going to a 2nd Interview Today
Reminders for myself: No matter how it goes, everything will be okay. You’re doing the best you can under your circumstances. If it does not work out, there’s a reason for that. Something else is headed towards your way which will work out for you. You’ve done the research and interview preparation to the best of your ability. Even if they don’t go forward with you,...
Do you ever feel empty sometimes? As children, we’re filled with so much hope and desire, yet are so content with where we are… and then we become adults only to become to most discontent bastards ever. We become angry at ourselves for not having achieved our childhood dreams. We realize that they become too difficult to attain due to a combination of barriers from the external world...
For me, some of the most times I’ve ever had is having a night like I’m having this evening… in which I am chilling to my favorite music with my star light projector and colorful disco lights in my bedroom. Just an awesome light show, good music, and solitude. I’m having so much fun jamming out!!! HAHA. :D
Drugs and Alcohol
You want to do drugs and drink alcohol? Go fuck yourself up but please don’t bring me down with you. I’m above the influence.
I thought I knew what my dreams were, but because I have not really pursued any of them, I am beginning to question whether I really have any. If I really had huge goals, dreams, and ambitions, wouldn’t I at least try to be living them out right now instead of job hunting so I can get some money? I read somewhere that if you stop chasing dreams, you’re dead. Am I dead? Already? ...
Society's Values. Keeping up with social...
It’s hard when you lose both of your jobs and find that you might not have your home you established and earned all by yourself anymore. The apartment complex I live in was recently sold to another company, I was laid off, and to top it all off my rent has went from $650/mo to $1350/mo. With lack of stable income, relying on temporary unemployment insurance, I’m not sure where I will...
Running away from society. Frustration with a mass...
What are we supposed to do in our lives? Philosophy and other studies of insights as to human thinking and lifestyles have given us an idea of the many perspectives and beliefs held by people around the world. There seems to be no definitive answer, but I don’t think most of us are actually content with life. Sometimes I want to run away from this society and travel far, far away. Why?...
Not meant to be.
I applied for a teaching position in Japan through Amity back in January and I have not heard anything. I turned down an interview with the JET program back in 2011, and now I just don’t have any leads to working in Japan as a teacher. Maybe it’s just not meant to be. As this job hunt goes on, I really am hoping I find meaningful work that helps make a positive difference in the...
Facebook Isn't Worth It | Seersucker →
zenhabits: I agree. This is why I quit Facebook more than a year ago, and use other social media sparingly.
The ultimate tool for corporations to sustain a culture of this sort is to...– Your Lifestyle Has Already Been Designed | Thought Catalog (via becomingminimalist)
It makes me happy when I see a parent get along with their child very well such that they can do activities together without arguing or having scolding or lecturing involved. I want that. My parents don’t get me and I don’t think that will change. I still love them, though. Just sometimes, I think I wouldn’t be as messed up of a person that I am today if I just got along more...
Started joining groups on Meetup.com in the Bay Area. If you’re into karaoke, improv, or just want to chill, let me know. I’m so in this spot in my life right now where I’d like to make new friends and meet new people.