Striving to find a balance in life between necessity and desire. I take on many roles as a person ranging from being a daughter, sister, friend, girlfriend, songwriter, singer, rapper, and entertainer. Originally this Tumblr was for music but so much has happened and now I'm just going to post whatever I feel like. Topics will include:
- Random Rants
- Interior design
- And whatever else I find interesting
I just need a space to express myself and share things I find amusing. Thanks for reading and have a wonderful day. :)
It’s been a while since I wrote a song but damn, once I hear a really cool beat and I feel inspired, it’s such a great feeling!
I only started writing songs the beginning of this year and upon reviewing them I’m like… dannngg… I really expressed a lot out of my heart in them. I remember the hurt and the pain behind the lyrics. I remember the hope behind them, too. When you write a poem or a song or anything like that, you really expose yourself to your listeners/readers. It’s a vulnerable state. I guess that’s why I get kind of shy around people I know when they listen/read my lyrics in front of me because I feel a little exposed. Strangely enough it feels less awkward to strangers who don’t know me.
Anywho, yeah. Inspiration. Tis good. :)
I could write songs to each beat. Each song makes me feel a certain mood I could poetically elaborate on. XD
Lately I’ve been so happy. I feel like I have hella swag. And I ain’t gonna lie, I feel like I got game. LOL. Must be the summer-like weather we gettin’ here in the Bay, making me feel hella swaggerific. :3
Was feeling depressed earlier today. Came home and wrote a song before anything else. Music is my therapy.
While pain and suffering are terrible things we hate to experience, I do believe struggle is what brings people together. We tend to relate to others who have gone through similar battles. We admire those who are able to climb over great adversities and make it to the other side.
Struggle/pain also gives birth to art as well. Don’t you find yourselves feeling a song when it talks about a certain strong emotion and it just resonates within you?
I kind of dislike that this is so, but when I feel hurt, somehow, that’s when I write/vocalize best. But it also transforms into some type of therapy.
HFTF was written during my break from a depression. I would not get out of bed nor eat for days unless I had to work. It was all bad. And when I finished the song, I was kind of embarrassed of it because I felt like I had poured so much out. I thought to myself ‘man, I don’t know how to really write songs… this is like emotional vomiting and maybe I sound really whiny.’ But when my friends said they liked it, I listened to it more and began to appreciate it. The song was conceived through my emotions of hurt and my desire to break free.
I often feel stupid because I feel like I’m letting dude make me feel this way - so damn hurt and sad all the time. He blames his downfall and our downfall on ME. He does not acknowledge any accountability. That’s why I wrote “I’m tired of feeling sorry for myself, all I have are the cards that I’ve been dealt.” Because, fuck that shit - I ain’t gonna blame myself for shit he took part in, also. Fuck him.
Never let anyone tell you you’re the reason they feel miserable, why something fell apart, or anything like that. Forreals.
Anywho, Imma do me. No more leaning backwards for someone who stopped giving a fuck about me long ago. I’m still going through struggle but I’m going to try to turn that struggle into art. Therapy. There we go.
Promoe - These Walls Don’t Lie